Sunday, April 24, 2005
this is my first time. i have no idea what it is, how it is gonna be, what it is gonna be like. it's so difficult to do things the right way, so against what i want, what i always dream of doing, and what i wished i could do.

i couldnt do so many things, yet these "dont do so many things" are good for everybody. but i want to cry. i just did. all cos i cant do many things that i want to do.

and so, i hate myself for not being brave enough. for not taking any step to do anything.

but im trying!

do you understand what im writing? most probably no. (:


|crunch.!| 10:39 PM|

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